Well, I'm new to the path but I hope my advice helps you out, at least a little! It sounds like you should just ride the waves a little and let them put you in, what could possibly be, a new direction! Waves always settle, it just may take a while. I hope your Pagan community understands that you're going through a rocky patch right now! I'm learning to embrace change in my life and this is just what I have learned. I hope it helps, at least a little!